Today

It is still hard for me to believe....when I went to the Kitsap county courthouse this morning, who pops up on the sidewalk just in front of me, Patrick Rojas, unbelievable. I kept going but slowed my pace down. Patrick was finishing up at the security check point when he looked up and saw me. I just stared at him. I actually felt numb. No emotion really either way. I know I hate him and all that he stands for but didn't feel anything. This is the first time I have seen him in person since Patrick's sentencing, literally 2yrs ago to the day. Someone wrote on my facebook page today, "life is interesting, ain't it?" That is one way to put it.

After everything, because our family now lives in Pierce county the trip this morning was for not. I had to turn around and go to the Tacoma courthouse and re-fill out essentially the same paperwork. I had to then return after noon to find out if the no contact order was issued. Good news, the court has issued a temporary no contact order and the hearing for a permanent one is soon. But wait, because Patrick lives in Kitsap county I had to run the sheriff's copy back down to the Kitsap county office so Patrick could be served the order. Patrick is scheduled to be served the no contact order and hearing date tomorrow.

This morning after seeing Patrick and finding out I needed to do the same thing just in a different county, I could understand why some people just quit. I wanted to quit. Just tell myself, "forget it, this is too much work and Patrick probably won't try and contact my child." But the still small voice inside kept me focused. Our boundaries need to be legally clear. I need to do everything to protect my child. What if ? I can't live with the what if. This way "if " Patrick for some insane reason tries to communicate with our child we will have legal recourse. It's not much but it's something. Our child told me the other night they were "freaked out" at the possibility of Patrick ever contacting them and the no contact order will bring a sense of control.