If someone asks him, ‘What are these wounds on your body?’ he will answer, ‘The wounds I was given at the house of my friends.’ Zech 13 v 6

Sunday, April 17, 2011

End Game For Italy

Two individuals have told me that one goal for being in Italy is to establish Italian citizenship. If Kathy can prove that a grandparent was from Italy, than Kathy can be granted citizenship. I am told that her citizenship would extend to her family members. This would give Eddie the ability to find a job in that country. They would no longer need to rely on others. This would also relieve them from the need to continually move around because they would have permanent residency. No need to return to the US. I believe this is the end game for Italy.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Still Hurting, Struggling and Battling

I don't have much if any contact with the other families that fellowshipped at PHOF during the time when everything happened to our family. I have talked in previous posts about the different times I drew a line and cut off contact with families that stayed on the other side of the line. Since that time some families have "seen the light" so to speak and regret some of their choices. I have also posted about my understanding of their heart change but that for me it is a little too little a little too late, in the context of restoring of the relationship. But Forgiveness, I can do.

Recently, I have come to know about some of the struggles that other families are continuing to deal with because of the crimes that Patrick committed and the choices that Eddie and Kathy and the church leadership made in relation to our case. I have known that we weren't the only "victims" although we were the center of the crimes and betrayals.

In a strange way it helps me to know that myself and individuals in my family are not the only ones still daily if not weekly dealing with the emotional fall out of all the harm that was done. Sometimes when I look at what I am dealing with in relation to the time that has passed, I do wonder if in someway I am hindering my own healing process. Especially when I get some of the Rojas supporter comments. I don't know why I allow their comments to affect me. Or others who wish I could just "move on."

I am not glad that others are still hurting, struggling and battling within but it does help put into perspective my own lingering struggles that are directly related. I wonder if Patrick, Jairus, Eddie and Kathy along with Jim and Dave really grasp all the lives they damaged. This could have played out so differently. There were numerous opportunities to do the right thing starting when Patrick was 15 years old. My heart is heavy with all the pain they caused others along their paths. All the more reason my blog needs to stay in tact. Names and all!