If someone asks him, ‘What are these wounds on your body?’ he will answer, ‘The wounds I was given at the house of my friends.’ Zech 13 v 6

Friday, September 4, 2009

Reflecting

I have been reflecting on some of the pivotal decision making moments since the discovery of our child being victimized. I know that it is obvious from my blog that along with dealing with the hurt of the betrayal from so many in my christian family, I have been struggling with my relationship with God. I know God didn't cause these horrific events to happen in my life. But I have struggled with the why didn't God intervene so that the events didn't take place. God is sovereign. I know all the thoughts about God knowing the "big" picture. God working all things for good for those who love and serve Him. (paraphrased) God being the redeemer. I could go on.

I know the personal effects of being a victim. I loved and served God in spite of my victimization. But why my child? Why from within the family of God?

As I reflect I can see the hand of God carrying our family. The most recent tangible example was at the courthouse when I was waiting in the hallway to enter the courtroom, when someone I knew was a lawyer, yet hadn't seen for many years happened to be looking for someone else in the same area I was in. The Tacoma courthouse is very large with many floors. There are numerous courtrooms. Where I was is a very out-of-the way area, yet I still saw someone I knew that would have valuable information for me. I was able to have a quick exchange with her and that is how I learned that if Patrick had an attorney our child was entitled to have an attorney appointed by the courts. At this point I had no reason to think Patrick would be contesting the no-contact order because Patrick was at the courthouse without his lawyer. Even the presiding judge wasn't aware of this particular law. God knew I would need to know that information.

To God be the honor and glory forever and ever......

2 comments:

Regina said...

Something I've been studying in Beth Moore's analysis of Daniel:

-Sometimes God delivers us from the fire.
-Sometimes God delivers us through the fire.
-Sometimes God uses the fire to deliver us into his arms.

Sounds like you guys are smack in situation B. Just remember that, when Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego were put in the fiery furnace, the only things that burned away were their bonds.

Bless you, Danielle, and all your family. You have a strength I hope God would grant me, were I to go through a similar trial.

freddyeddy said...

What's great about God as I know him, is that Jesus is...God. He shows us God. He demonstrates who God is, how God "behaves" among humans, and how far God will go to reach out and grab us in spite of our sin-willful and "unintentional".

I would submit that we're in more danger as "experts" and "rule enforcers" than in pain and struggling.

I'm not going to let go because I know God hasn't.