I started working on the issues and the baggage that I still carried from the abuse. But when we received the news from the prosecutor that additional abuse had occurred towards our child by Patrick and that his parents Eddie and Kathy Rojas had previous knowledge of his pedophile behavior, I had to shut down. My counselor said, "It was what I needed to do in order to protect myself." It was all I could do not to lose it. I needed all my energy to help my family.
I do still think about this everyday. I am trying to accept that this is my life. I think that because of my past and because I am an adult and understand all of the ramifications with everything involved this has devastated me the most in the here and now. I am hoping that God will bring awareness and healing via our story and our experience. If one child can be spared the devastation of childhood sexual abuse from me speaking out, then it will have made all of this a little more bearable.